Monday, April 21, 2014

Pardon My French....

How fast a day can change!  My Monday started out like a peach (pardon the pun) and ended up rotten.  I have such a throbbing headache now I can't see straight.  I'm sad, I can't stop crying, I'm anxious, my heart is beating fast.  All of these things indicate triggers and that I'm supposed to pull out these magical things we call coping skills.  It's like they are an arsenal to combat the bad and the ugly.  How do I combat a member of Senior management of a company screaming at me on the phone in a condescending tone essentially telling me I am stupid?  I'm not equipped for that!  I feel too weak to cope with that kind of a conversation.  It makes me so damn angry.  

What did I do?  I researched like I do everything these days.  My exact google search was "Managing by belittling others."  Here's an excerpt of what popped up under the first article I read.  It told me all I needed to know.  I've dried up my tears, had my shoulders rubbed and a great pep talk telling me all that I already knew but needed to hear.  I cannot make her "stuff" my "stuff."  I cannot combat that behavior.    


Understand their moods and behavior will swing back and forth. Narcissists can be very charming at times – usually to “win” people as friends or allies. Narcissists can be very vindictive at other times – usually as a result of a “narcissistic injury” when someone has threatened their superior self-image, either privately or publically. Both of these moods are temporary, so it’s not hopeless when he or she is being vindictive, and its not over when he or she is being charming again. You can often influence these moods. You just have to be careful. I know you will resent having to watch your own behavior so much, but it’s not that hard and it will make your life so much easier.     

Course, in typical fashion, my friend Ben seems to know what I need without even talking to me.  At 5:55 PM, this pops through my email with the subject line of "Have a great week."  




And I just am realizing I blogged twice today.  You may not need me, but I need you.  I need this outlet more than I ever knew.  
Thanks for listening....xo


      


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