Keep On the Sunny Side

I want to have full transparency in my writing, however, it's really hard to do that at times.  Last night and this morning are difficult.  I'm uncovering just how sick I really was.  It frightens me.  It shakes me to my core.  It scares me in not being able to remember things.      

JT said in one of our support group meetings recently to another member,  that he realizes for me it's about moving forward, it's about not visiting the past, it's about the future.  That is oh so true.  However, there are little tiny demons who show themselves every now and then to remind me of the past and how I wasn't my true self and how deep in a hole I really was.  I'm working through them minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, week by week.  I told him last night, the good days far outweigh the bad.  They truly do and I know that I am more grateful than ever for them.  I do see the sun, the flowers, the love and I hadn't seen any of those things for a really long time.  I probably frustrated a lot of people in my dark period.  I am on the sunny side again and I am grateful for the people who crossed over with me and remain.  

May we all see the sun even through the rain today.  xo....n